The Last Three Letters

Dearest love I hope this message finds you well  
As these endless thoughts drip from my soul 
Every single word secretly paints a fairytale 
Of when we will melt into one
 
Eyes forfeit sight to the pain 
Cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
As I cling to my memories of you
I am so scared, so scared, I need you with me
 
Were the last words That I wrote for you enough to tell you 
That in my death the light that shone  
Through my painful darkness  
Was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?
It's me again Is it me or am I wrong to be concerned? 
Will the beauty of your pen Ever cross my eyes again? 
Was this all a lie? Why?
 
Were the last words That I wrote for you enough to tell you 
That in my death the light that shone  
Through my painful darkness 
Was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?
Make it stop 
Make this pounding in my head stop  
Fill my lungs with air, give me one more day  
To make her dreams come true
 
She understands right?  
That I'm not coming back  
She understands right? 
That I'm not coming back
Make it stop, make the pounding stop  
I'm not coming back 
I'm not coming back  
I'm not coming back
I don't know what happened 
Who would have thought 
My life would end up like this?
I never even got the chance  
To see her face or to touch her hair 
And now it's too late
I didn't mean to hurt her  
Not hurt her like this 
I can't feel my legs 
I can't feel my legs 
And I can't even cry
How could someone die like this? 
Who would have thought 
My life would end up like this
 
If my words ever reach you 
I'll assume you don't care  
Never knew that silence could cut 
So deep or that you could twist the blade
Now I curse all of your beautiful lies  
I love you and goodbye
Were the last words That I wrote for you enough to tell you  
That in my death the light that shone  
Through my painful darkness  
Was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?
Cold scalpel's steel 
Whispers tear at my very core as I cling to my memories of you

-Alesana